Reflections Emerging from the Cauldron

Autumnal Equinox - Full Moon
September 2018

by Dhyana Kluth

My mantra lately has been, “I am Earth, I am Fire, I am Air, I am Water—I am an integral part of the universe.” I danced and sang, embodied and released this mantra into the wind and salty waters at a shamanic meeting of Wombs and Haras on the high holy day of September 19. After this return to our primordial and innocent essence reset, a new portal opened. I began to dream and menstruate as I entered a new cauldron of birthing.

Many ingredients bubbled in this immense cauldron of feeling—a non-verbal state of remembering and releasing, different than pre-verbal feelings, a stew of so much bubbling forth from the flames—that I was so much immersed in the experience of it to translate into words. Trusting this process I knew that words, followed by empowered actions, would return again as the cycle of shedding and emptying created space for the next new cycle budding growth and blooming.

A curious fog of old matter surfaced for transmutation and release during these last couple of days transitioning from Summer to Autumn. In this cloud of feeling, I returned again to a sense of how my ego has presented itself throughout my life; I observed how subtly this ego self still dances with my sense of being, even as I am continually becoming. As I let go to release what is ready to be released, I consciously released my grasp on those old ways of being which no longer serve Love and being in harmony with all life. Again and again, spiraling with this theme of letting go for many moons. There was ironically so much activity in the stillness of this most recent dense cloud cover!

I asked myself in the midst of this active stillness, “What exactly is my integral place in this universe at this time? What unseen vision is gestating next to be manifested? How am I to be of service now?”

Sometimes, in the midst of these kinds of slowly passing clouds, even as I trust and embrace the being with as I am, I might begin to feel anxious with wanting to do something, to be something, to take action, to produce and define, to clear the cobwebs and have clarity. But it is during these times I am called to simply be and listen deeper while the invisible weaving forms within and around me.

As it inevitably does, the cloud passes and the air clears and some new thing happens—as it did for me this morning: I received a call to action to which I replied, “Yes” with love and the clarity of right action. The arc of this experience reminded me of a refrain which has been repeating underneath all of this and even before this over the last couple of weeks; I keep coming back to this wonderful sentiment about how doing nothing will lead to the very best kind of something (from the movie I took my youngest daughter to see recently, Christopher Robin). Indeed, it does eventually.

This was my Autumnal Equinox becoming Full Moon experience. I wish you abundant blessings on this full moon with an encouragement to take the time to do nothing, be nothing, listen deeply, and trust this quiet process of becoming which we are all individually and collectively and acutely in the process of at this time. Go to the waters, allow yourself to be reflected back to you and drink from the restorative wellspring.