This past week I had been feeling so much pain and suffering. Feeling really depressed and wanting external validation and longing for tender loving care and consideration. I trembled at the thought of what would happen if I were to reveal how vulnerable I feel right now. Being seen in my vulnerability has been an especially delicate balance because of the nature of the work I do - my perception of the work I do with people. I experienced my thoughts, about what 'who I am' should look like, confining and imprisoning me. Psychologically and spiritually quarantined. I am a mother. My life consists primarily of meeting the needs of my children, and all the tangential time-consuming tasks related to their well-being. During the time I carve out for myself I focus on continuing my growth as an embodied spirit. For over a decade, I have been working with the themes of Trust and Control - and how these pertain to both my inner world and my relationships. Years later, I am still working with Trust and letting go of Control - even after studying and becoming a practicing minister, psychospiritual therapist, womb awakening mentor/priestess/facilitator, mindfulness meditation teacher, and essentially being a perpetual student of mind and body and spirit, All of these defining descriptions about who I am do not really matter. Except that they impose limits on the limitless possibilities of being and becoming - as long as I think they do. The evolutionary shift out of this powerful spiraling journey came as I chose to move toward that pain and suffering, to be seen by friends in my community and online circles. I dove in, felt it all, surrendered to the Divine Feminine, removed my mask, embraced my self, and then I felt better. This is what happens when we face the monster rearing its ugly head (there is so much judgement and fear in those well-known words): the monster and the fear are transformed and transmuted. No longer viscerally frightened about fully being seen, here I am and this is my experience...
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Autumnal Equinox - Full Moon September 2018 by Dhyana Kluth My mantra lately has been, “I am Earth, I am Fire, I am Air, I am Water—I am an integral part of the universe.” I danced and sang, embodied and released this mantra into the wind and salty waters at a shamanic meeting of Wombs and Haras on the high holy day of September 19. After this return to our primordial and innocent essence reset, a new portal opened. I began to dream and menstruate as I entered a new cauldron of birthing.
by Dhyana Kluth This September new moon falls on the 9th. One of my favorite magical Sacred numbers is 9. It is a number of birthing. It is the number of months we gestate in the womb, growing and forming from the codes of pure primordial energy. This can be a number to use when gestating the creation a new project, business, or practice. We can choose that number for the length of days to meditation on a mantra, to steep in an intentional field of resonance for a cycle of time. When our cycle is complete, we shed and release the bed we prepared in our womb to gestate life. We let go and return that energy to the toroidal flow of Source. by Dhyana Kluth At home with two young children I have very little space for the loud 45-minute wild ride that the fiery Dragon Shakti Breathing practice can be. That is why I gave myself the space to go on retreat and immerse myself in the safe space of a sanctified holy sacred circle. Here is my journal entry about what occurred during my Womb Awakening Dragon Shakti Breathing session there.
Temple of the Feminine Arts at Prama Institute, Asheville NC Fertility Goddess Mother Shakti Dragon Healing Breathing in, in, in. Exhaling out. I make the commitment to myself to keep breathing the dragon breath. Drop deeper and dive into the fire of the Dragon Shakti Breathing practice. I allow my body to undulate, tipping my pelvis as I exhale and arching my back—heart opening—as I inhale, inhale, inhale. This is what I came here to do. To be in my body. To feel. It’s safe to feel this now. by Dhyana Kluth Temple of the Feminine Arts retreat at Prama Institute, Asheville NC
It’s been a day since the retreat ended and I am still here on this mystical mountainous wooded land, waiting for my ride to the airport, feeling like fresh nettle tea leaves that have been steeped in the cauldron of the Divine Feminine, green with juicy vibrant nourishing color. Yesterday I began to write about my experience the first day of the retreat. Today, I continue with my journey on Day Two of this beautiful immersion when I danced a cathartic dance with the Dragon Elements of Creation around the Womb Medicine Wheel. by Dhyana Kluth I haven’t published an article here in a long while, busy with birthing new work, parenting, co-creating communities, unraveling mysteries and healing my body-Temple. As you all know and feel, it has been a potent and intense time as we’ve been journeying through an evolutionary portal together on this planet. So I said yes to diving into some self-care, away from the family—away from my kids for four days for the first time in over ten years since I became a mother. During this retreat I allowed myself to be held by Divine Mother and received a blessing from Mary Magdalene. I wish to share this gift with you. This is my journal entry about what happened.
by Rev. Dhyana Kluth
There is no truth in race or class differences. I know this intellectually and in my bones and yet the conditioning that has been passed down through generations permeates even a conscious empath who has studied in depth the inner workings of the psyche and spirit. I am multi-ethnic and even I have been influenced by the inherited unfounded beliefs of white supremacists that have become embedded in the fabric of the illusion we perceive as reality, the reality of skewed interpretations of experience. Though I grew up in a multi-cultural city with friends from from all of the world, varied in race and religion and culture, even I was not immune to the influence of that insidious patriarchal wound.
Posted by Rev. Dhyana Kluth via Azra Betrand LIVE INTERVIEW ~ Monday, August 14, 6pm Eastern ~ Womb Awakening: The Magical Science of the Sacred Feminine Revolution A paradigm-shattering new science of the sacred feminine is being birthed. Menstrual stem cells, telepathy, the mother consciousness of the cerebellum, epigenetics of love, Akashic memory, quantum coherence fields of sacred relationship … by Rev. Dhyana Kluth I had a dream about Womb Awakening while my husband and I cuddled and dozed off this morning ... I was on the wooden floor of a spacious cozy room. One of my teachers, Irma StarSprit, was giving out medicine bundles after a class and my six-year-old daughter wanted one of the goats' toenail rattles. As I was asking Irma if we could have one too, a gourd rattle that my daughter and I were also interested in popped out of the pile and hopped over to me.
A guy (who earlier in the dream was represented by my husband) was talking about Womb Awakening with a beloved spiritual sister, Nat Love. They were reclined on pillows in the middle of the room with us, and he was talking about opening, softening and releasing. I got the impression at first that he was business-minded, scientific and worked in a more masculine field than feminine creativity. Then he was stood up, and with the palms of his hands he rubbed the sore hernia areas on both sides where the ovaries would be in a woman. Next he had undergone a transformation, and with his back (our feminine consciousness) to me I could see he now had longer blonde hair and was talking about how he plays guitar in a rock band (feminine creative life force manifest). I woke up as I was opening the shades and pulling back the curtains around the sun-lit room in the dream... Posted by Rev. Dhyana Kluth
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Carol, Aine and Dhyana are Womb Priestesses and Fountain of Life teachers and mentors who love the path of motherhood, dancing, shamanism, creative living and sisterhood. |